Wednesday, February 25, 2009

02/25 - Noon

Praise God!

The pet scan came back all clear - no tumors anywhere anywhere else outside of the brain!

They have already started the super-duper radiation on him and it is, I guess, going well.

He is at home now with some assistance from GoodCare Home services. They have been awesome!

I'm not sure what else to report. If you can think of questions, please let me know.

I will blog again when I know more.


Tuesday, February 24, 2009

2/24 - 9:00am

I just talked to the Nurse from Harrington Cancer Center.

The new MRI they did was a stronger MRI than the one that they had previously done last week. This new scan shows that there are 3 tumors in Roger's brain. Lora (the nurse) indicated that this was good news because apparently it is easier to eliminate a small tumor than it is a larger one. She said that Dr. McCormick was still confident that he could rid dad of these.

The PET scan that he had yesterday that will show any kind of tumors anywhere else in the body should be back today some time after noon. She said she will call my cell phone to let me know those results too.

My fear is that if there are three in the brain, then are there more elsewhere. I already had that fear, but now that we are dealing with multiple tumors in the brain, I am even more nervous.

Every prayer you say is precious to Dawn and I - and to Roger also.

I appreciate every one of you who read this and I know dad does too.


Monday, February 23, 2009

2/23 - 9:30pm

So... It has been a quiet couple of days, and I am so glad for it.

Dad has been doing some generalized radiation on his head to slow the growth of this tumor. They are working on his super duper fancy-shmanchy radiation that will only target the tumor, but while we are waiting on the physicists to get it all set up, we are doing what we can to slow this damn thing down.

So far dad is taking it very well - no ill side effects. I have not noticed much difference in his memory, but every time I talked to him today, he seemed to be better than I remember him in several weeks. Thank you, God.

Today dad had both a PET scan and another MRI. These were to make sure that this tumor we know about in his brain is the only one we are dealing with. If it is not, then Dan and I have some quite difficult decisions to make.

Dad is supposed to go home on Tuesday (tomorrow). We have some help coming in for the mornings and we will take him Monday-Friday to radiation.

I don't know what else to say until we find out what the MRI and PET scan show.

Please keep praying.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

2/19 - 11pm

I can not speak for dawn, but this has been undoubtedly been the most stressful day of my life.

We started the day early at 8:30 meeting with Rich Jones and Dr Cone. They showed Casey and I the scans they had done of the tumor and the problems with it. They explained why they could not operate on it and gave us their opinions on why they felt like radiation might not be a viable option for dad.

After meeting with them we felt that we needed to be considering hospice or other options, to make dad comfortable and to prepare ourselves for dad to maybe not be with us in a few months. It was a low of lows... But considering that dad had told us that he did not want to do chemo again, we felt like that probably included the idea of radiation. The reason he did not want to do chemo, was because of how terrible it made him feel. We could only deduce that he would not want to do radiation if it was going to cause the same side effects.

While trying to make plans with hospice and make plans about what kind of care we were going to be able provide for dad, Dr Ferrero showed up to talk to us. We had decided to DO hospice. We were ready to go. The nice lady from hospice was ready to call a transport to get dad over to hospice. But like I said... Dr. Ferrero entered the picture.

Dr. Ferrero is from Columba. That is not a bad thing. Where it became a problem was first of all the cultural differnces and second, the language barrier. Instead of coming to us and letting us know that he had an option that we might want to consider for dad, he came to us telling us he was NOT going to sign any odrers that would allow dad to go into Hospice care. He was abrasive, arrogant and hostile. This did not set well with any of us and caused quite the stir and quite the scene in the waiting area of the 6th floor at BSA.

So, now the situation is this. Dr Ferrero is forcing us to listen to him in broken english talk about something that he can not find the appropriate english words for and telling us that he will not sign papers releasing dad into the car of hospice. He tells us that he has scheduled an appointment for dad to have a consultation with the radiological oncologist on next Tuesday. One of the big problems with that is that dad is now being discharged from the hospital and is in need of constant care - which hospice was going to provide for 5 days while we got things settled. But now if we chose to go with the option of meeting with oncology, hospice will not take us because we are seeking treatment. But we can not get into hospice because Dr. Ferrero will not sign the $%#$ papers. Rock, meet hard place.... Hard place, meet Mr Rock.

My loving wife. Lord, I love her. She asks Dr. Ferrero why we have to wait till Tuesday for a consult with the radiological oncologist... Well... turns out, the is out of town. But my loving bride suggests that Dr Ferrero use a new device called a "telephone" to find a different radiological oncologist here in Amarilo to meet with us so we don't have to wait till Tuesday. Between this and Casey crawling his case and me chosing my words and expletives not very wisely, Dr. Ferrero found us a new radiological oncologist.

New radiological oncologist=Dr McCormick at Harrington Cancer Center.

Dr. McCormick has a fancy radiation machine with a really long name that I do not remember. It makes a very precise beam hit the tumor and has no ill side effects (like conventional radiation).

There is more to it, but the quick verson is this: Dawn and I think that because it does not have the crappy side effects like chemo does, we want to try it to give dad a chance. There are some different tests that we are going to do to see if there are more tumors in other places in the body and brain, but with the information we have today, we believe this is the best option for dad and would honor his wishes.

Please please please keep praying for wisdom and strength.

Isa 43:2 - When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

2/18 - 9:30pm

Dawn and I spoke to Dr. Cone's office today and found out that the tumor is not operable.

Apparently radiation is the next best option.

Dawn and I are going to meet with Dr. Cone and Rich Jones on Thursday and find out what kind of time that will give dad and what kind of success rate they think it will have.

Dawn and I both are pretty stressed out right now and don't really know what to do. I guess we'll find out more tomorrow.

Please keep praying.

New update 02/18 11:30 am


Ok. We just talked to Rich from Dr. Cones office.

We were told last night that the tumor by a Dr that the tumor was isolated and not deep at all in dad's brain.

Rich Jones came by dad's room today and talked to Dawn. Apparently the tumor IS deep and has wrapped itself into dad's brain. I envision it more like a octopus with legs rather than a golf ball. Rich also mentioned that it is effecting both sides of dad's brain.

I do not know the size yet.

Rich said that Dr Cone and dad's lung cancer Dr. are consulting and trying to decide whether it is worth the risk of going in and possibly causing more numerological damage, or if radiation is a better option at this point.

Dad is foggy. He is not super aware of what is going on and it is frustrating for me. I won't speak for Dawn, but I imaging it is for her as well.

My family is coveting your prayers. We got a call yesterday from Nicholas' school telling us we had to come get him because of suspected pink eye and that he could not return without a Dr's note. Sigh....... really? not a huge deal, just a frustration with everything else that is going on.

Pray that I can be all I need to be for those that rely on me. Pray for dad. Pray for Dwan and Casey and Andrea. Pray for our health, both mental and physical. Pray for my kids. Pray for Nolan...... Pray for the Doctors.

Update - 02/17


Ok.... So lots of you have asked.

So I thought I make it easier for us to communicate here.

on Monday the 16th Dawn and I went to dad's house with the intention of talking to him about depression and possibly getting some help. The longer we talked to him, the more we realized that it was not depression that was likely causing what we were seeing. We felt like it was something physically wrong, but didn't know what.

After talking to lots of people and going to the urgent care clinic on Monday night we decided to get some sleep and take dad to the ER on Tuesday morning.

I took dad to the ER this morning and they got right on it and did every test they could think of: blood work, cat scan, xray.... etc...

The cat scan came back with a mass in his brain. I do not know how big yet, I don't know if there is more that one yet..... Dr. Cone had dad do an MRI tonight and will let us know more on Wednesday. I understand now that the MRI shows more detail and more of the brain.

I don't know what else to say other than this: God has counted all of our days and will call each of us home when it is our time. I believe that I speak for dad in this too. I know he has a deep love for our Father and also in our savior Christ Jesus. I think my dad will be very happy to live and have more life here on earth, and I believe he will be happy to go home to be with Christ. **(Philippians 1:21)**

Please pray. Pray that God be glorified in dad's life and through this new battle. Pray that our families have the strength to make wise decisions wen they need to be made and to be unified. Pray that even through what ever suffering dad may go through that God be glorified.

Please forward the address of this blog to whomever you think would be interested.

Love you all.